Hobby Update & Depression


January 22, 2020 by Lee

Hi, todays post is a little different from the norm.

As you all may know, I suffer with depression and anxiety. Now most of the time I try really hard to keep it in check as I don’t want the black dog beating me. But, that doesn’t mean to say that I’m immune.

I was recently watching a hobby update video from Ralph Astley, one of our YouTube subscribers and he was talking about an issue he had been suffering. Listening to his story got me thinking, “hey I suffer from that, I may be able to help him by talking about my experience dealing with it. But, where do I start ?”.

On top of work and general life issues, I have been down for some time now as my black dog is becoming unmanageable. I have been feeling guilty about not painting anymore and seeing such lovely work from people on the internet and an innocent comment recently had made this guilt feel worse.

The last things that I had painted in large numbers were some English Civil War figures, I had started a Viking Saga force, but, never finished. This was all pre 2016 when I was diagnosed with this condition.

So, as you can imagine, all the skills I’ve learnt over the years has gone. Painting has moved on in leaps and bounds and I fear that I will never be able to recover those lost skills. I have said before, that when I sit down to concentrate for any period of time, my mind races and I begin to get the shakes (not good if your trying to be neat painting a straight line).

With all this in mind I decided to make a video and openly on camera talk about my condition to help others suffering and to give them support. This wasn’t easy and I took the video several times, but I wanted to convey briefly what it is to me and how it effects my hobby.

Also in the video I show some Wargames Foundry Congo miniatures that Shaun from Little Ninja Painting did for us some time back, all I had to do was base them (which I had not done). This is the first challenge I have set myself is to get them finished.

Finally in the video, I also wanted to share with you what we are planning so far for this year as that will be goals that I can work to. Please feel free to watch the video.


Hopefully you have got something form the video and from this post. It is something hard to talk about but important none the less. Anyway, on with the challenge……..

I hope you have found this post informative. Please feel free to like, share and comment on our various forums. Next posts will be with you shortly……….. until then, happy gaming.


4 thoughts on “Hobby Update & Depression

  1. Markus Sharaput says:

    Brother, you’re not alone. The number of people out there, including me, who’ve struggled with this is astonishing. Just remember, there are things that can help (are you seeing someone, have you talked to a doctor about meds?), and it does come in phases, so with help, there’s another side. Be strong, reach out.

    Liked by 1 person

    • Lee says:

      Hi Markus thanks mate.

      Yes as I said in the video, I had seen the doctor and was on the meds but sometimes it creeps up on me when I least expect it. I decided to make the video after watching a fellow gamer talking about his issues and I thought that I’d reach out to support him by telling my story, and saying he is not alone.


  2. BARRY HILTON says:

    You and your group do great work Lee. Take comfort from that contribution to the hobby. You are doing plenty. That’s a very positive achievement. I thought your ECW units looked splendid. I would be proud if I had painted them!

    Liked by 1 person

    • Lee says:

      Thank you and as always Barry I appreciate your thoughts and support. Our hobby has meant a lot to me, but I feel of late I’ve let it down and I need to take stock to regain my enthusiasm for the painting sides it.


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